Thursday, December 30, 2010

Wind is out of my sails...



Today I am sad.

Sad for a variety of reasons, but the biggest reason had to go back to Utah today.


As excited as I was for her to arrive two weeks ago, that is how let down I am today.

I don't know if I will ever get used to sending a child to live and go to school far away from my maternal embrace.

It has to happen, right? I mean, they can't live with you forever, right? Where did the years go?

Sometimes I think I'm in a time warp, and I don't know how to get out.

I know I should be posting happy things about how great the holidays were with everyone under one roof - and they were, don't get me wrong! And I'll post all about them, tomorrow, maybe. But today I think I'll just be sad until I can get back into the groove of life with the youngest 3 children (whom I dearly love and adore as much as the oldest - PLEASE don't ever leave me, OK?) and my sweet husband.

Oh, well, at least she left a bunch of stuff behind for us to look at... (Thanks, Lyss! Love you!)

(I'll send these things when I am not so verklempt...)
**sigh**

4 comments:

Tracy said...

It's perfectly ok to be sad Kris. Personally, I just can't imagine sending one off! I seriously don't think that time will ever come, will it? Nah. You are wonderful. Tomorrow you won't be as sad. Then you can post about Christmas. Looking forward to it!

Alyssa Ball said...

i love you mom! and i wish you were laying here on my couch watching back to the future with me. it's okay though see you in ONE month :)

The Lymans said...

I will be sad to not see Kaylee's junk lying around too. (Maybe not the retainer cover or the gross retainer with food on it...) Hang in there!

Aly G said...

Oh the let down!:( I can't imagine having a child away for College! I know it will happen, but seriously! Lyss has sure had quite the crazy start to a new year! She will be such a better person from this learning experience with that boy! His Loss! He's a Zoobie is all I can say:) Can't wait to see ya and Par tay!!!x0x0